i have been thinking about this continuously for about five months or so. every time i start thinking about different situations in my life i always question myself like, “am i too young”, “what will so and so think”, “what if i regret this”, and probably about fifty more things. i just realized that at one point in my life i used to not ask myself these type of things and i would always follow my gut which was actually sometime i loved about myself. my mind now has become so consumed with what my parents will think or my boyfriend or my friends or my sister that i forget to stop and think about how i actually feel about it. my thoughts are so skewed from the constant opinions and reactions that everyone around me makes that i almost in a way feel like i have forgotten what i actually think. it honestly is really upsetting to me and i just want to get back to my carefree self and not have such an altered perception of my own life.